The beauty you see in me is a reflection of you. ~ Rumi
Upon answering my phone on a busy morning I listened to the following request “Kim, could you come and assess a ‘difficult’ patient for potential admission to your facility? She is refusing to leave the hospital for her next level of care. Everyone who comes to see her she dislikes, throws stuff at them and kicks them out of her room. We are on day four of dealing with this and I am not sure what else to do.”
I work with critically ill patients, those who in an instant have had their lives turned upside down. These patients are on ventilators, have had surgeries that didn’t go as planned, experienced trauma from accidents and anything imaginable that you pray you or a loved one never have to encounter. The road to recovery is discussed on a minute to minute, hour to hour, day by day basis. Medical crisis is my comfort zone.
Prior to entering this patient’s room, I gathered myself by taking in a few deep breaths and focused on coming from a heart space. Upon entering, the face of Miss So-Called Difficult Patient lit up and smiled. Could this be the same patient the social worker described to me? As we spoke she began to express how happy she was to see me. I sat next to her quietly and listened. I sensed she needed to be heard. She proceeded to describe how she felt everyone was pressuring her to make choices. Choices they felt were in her best interest but seemingly not giving her the opportunity to actually make the decisions herself. Many of the people who had approached her had felt so cold to her and she described how their energy came across as awful.
It started to make sense why she demanded they leave her room. She closed her eyes and after a few moments of silence opened her eyes again and exclaimed, “Your energy is so beautiful! It’s like God answered my prayers!” I was taken aback by her comment. She proceeded to “Ooh” and “Ahh”, saying that the angel above my right shoulder was so sparkly. What? Could this lady be seeing an angel? Could she be sensing the extraordinary in my presence?
Our conversations continued with me explaining how I could assist with her recovery and without any hesitation she agreed to transfer to the facility I work for. As I exited the room, she was giddy and I think I was a bit too. I happily reported back to my referral source that all was taken care of and she was in agreement to move forward with her next level of care the following day.
Later that afternoon, the MD and RN approached me saying they couldn’t believe how the patient seemed like a different person since I had been in to meet with her. She was suddenly cooperating with her caregivers and decisions. I smiled and nodded, sensing there was a greater force than myself behind this shift.
The next day, as we were preparing for this patient to transfer, she called my phone requesting I come to her room and see her. My patients are generally too ill to call me directly so I was secretly hoping there hadn’t been a change in her plans or demeanor. As I entered the room her face once again lit up. She immediately began commenting that the colors around my head were so breath-taking and stating this was confirmation that God answered her prayers and was indeed directing her to her next place of recovery. Speechless, I could only imagine she was seeing my aura. I could feel her joy, sense her amazement and deep connection to a higher power. I am happy to report the patient was transferred to our facility without incident.
Angels, auras and answered prayers.
After 20 plus years in healthcare, this is the first time a patient has shared with me what they were feeling and seeing energetically. While I thought my job was to assist this beautiful soul with understanding how I could assist her next steps in healing, little did I know that my presence would bring about a healing experience from the divine for both of us.
Kimberly F. Minnesota. The United States.
